Friday, March 19, 2010

IF you knew what i ahve been though
Your tune woudl change
If you knew waht i have felt
YOu tune would change
If you knew waht i ahve seen
Your tune owuld change
If you know what i have heard
YOu tune would change
If you know me
YOur tune owuld change
But know nothing
You do not know me
YOu see me in the light
But not in thesering darkness of night
YOu see my in groups
But oyus e eme not alone
You see me in happenis
But you see me not in pain
If you knoew
Your tune woudl change

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Intro :
Three novlas: The Joy luck Club- Amy Tan
The Kite Runner – Khaled Hosseini
Looking for Alaska- John Green
Subject Ill be using for the easy
An-mei Hsu
Occasions: Promted each writer
PArints were imigrante witchw as the larger occasion. The immeda occasion though was her trip to china with her mothere.
For John Green the larger occaiosn was like Tan the exparins beignt he same as his charicters He like milles didi livein Florida and went to a Borading school in Alabama. The immeadat occasion tough was his work at a Children’s Hospital.
The larger occastion for Khaled Hossein is him experinse almost the same sitation as his charter Amir. The immead occasiotn though is going back to his homeland/
Autheres: Alll of thease autheres have experienced completely opposite things different time peoids different situations and completely different novals. Yet each one of thease autheres shows a noval with charters wanting to turn there back on the past and forget what has happened
Thesis: In all three novels, The Joy Luck Club, Looking for Alaska, and The Kite Runner. The author gives one or more charters in the novel a past that they wish not to remember or relive and so they shove it away as a way to deal with it.
P 1: The Joy Luck Club
Ts: In the Joy Luck Club the charter An-mei Hsu chooses and is semi forced to forget her past.
Quot 1: “When I was a young girl in Chine, my grandmother told me my mother was a ghost”(42). This is her grandmother alsmot telling her to forget her mothere
Quot 2: “I knew Popo wanted me to forget my mothere on purpose, and this is how I came to rember nothing of her”(42).
Ex 1: She movies to Amarica and escapes her past and all the hurt that waent with it.
EX 2:When Bing died she forgot her faith. The continuation of her insteld forgetting follows her all the way to Amarica and how she deals with the hurt.
Speaker” An-Hsu
Tone: Hurt
Clincher: An-Hsu turns her back to a world that hurt her and coause her pain with ther first instanced of forced forgetting to her als inconter off it with the losose of her sone An- Hsue uses forgetting to cop with her hurt

TS: Just like in the Joy Luck Clup Amir in The Kite Runner uses forgetting as a way to cop with the pain and gilt her felt as a child leacing Hamer in the allie.
Quot 1: “I bit at my fist. Shut my eyes”(72). This is his first isntes of forgetign the act of turning his back so he dose not have to rember.
Quot 2: “And that is the closes me and Hassan ever came to discussing what has hpapend in that ally”(78). He never talked aobut he he shoes to never speak it to forget it as if it wold not be real if it was never said.
Ex1: He nere menchend the insidend to any one till he was much much older. He was trying to gfroget trying to leace it all behind
Ex 2: even though he had Family in Pakistna he never wnt bback. He wanted to stay as far away to forget everthing and anything that hpapend in Pakistan.
Speaker Amir
Tone: Angrey at himself.
CL;incher. In The Kiter Runner Amir tied to find a way to forget his past and the pain and gult her felt with it by never speking it and closeoing heis eyes to it leartly and in a figurative maner.

TS: Like Amir Alask In Looking for Alaska tried to forget what she ahd done and what she saw as her falt.
Quot 1: “ Yeah I wasa alittle kid little kidas can diel 911”(118). This shows how alska wish to forget but she enver truly has the abilty to forget. She holds a grude agenst her se;f.
Quot2:””Why didn’t you ever tell me?”…. “It never came up”(120). This shows aslaks trying to forget the pain the hurt by not talking just like Amir if it wants talked aobut it didn’t happe.
Ex: Alaska never spoke aobut the sinsident untily she was very very drunk she wanted to forget the pain and guilt vbut she never could escap iot.
Ex: Alask drawned her pain in the drinking she did it was a nother method to her of tring to forget.
Speakcer: Pudge
Tone: Serching for ansers
Clincher: In Looking for Alaska tryes to make it so she dosnt have to rember what hpapend to her mom what she feals she didi to her mom. Alaska like Amire hold a s burdona burodn of guilt that she wish to forget.

THieses: In all three novels, The Joy Luck Club, Looking for Alaska, and The Kite Runner. The author gives one or more charters in the novel a past that they wish not to remember or relive and so they shove it away as a way to deal with it.
Puirpose: Its human anateure for people to want to forget what hurts in all three of thease novals the charter is looking for some way to make it not hurt, but in all thre novals the authere wether it be Tan, Hossien or even Green protrats someone who is looking to forget butalways sems to rember. The authere is almost tells the readerthat the past is to important to forget and tyou never can forget it.
ASudince. In all three of thiease nocal the authere is speking to the purson who want tos to frget wether it be an imigraten, a bad fribned, or even jsuta teenage girl.
KLast seentince: In all the noval: The Joy Luck Club, The Kite Runner, or Looking for Alaska the auther portras charter who wish to forget the past that amdie thenm and the things that shppeappedn them. But as each noval shows the past has a way of finding them. All three books show the past makes the charters. The charictors don’t make that past.

Monday, January 11, 2010

You know why i tlel people not to appoligis. Couase it dosnt matter. THey will do the exact soemthing to me tommarow. SO why why sohuld they apoligs wahts the piont if youre jsut goignot do it agne tomamrow does that relay mean there truly sorry? People appoligis but can they relay mena it wehn day after day they do the same thing to me? Oh and pet peve dani i sitll love you like im the one who did soemtihng wrong. Like crap you still love me dont give my that you dont care aoubt me you dont love me. YOu treat me like crap like dirt like the skum of the earth and thne you aks me how are you soopst o trust me? I go though th same thing ever single day with you. HAy cani can you help me with osmeinth sure what is is you rtlel me your problum thne no matte rhwat i say its wrong. YOu get pissie. THne i get pissed ocuse im tired of all this friken crap. thne dani isitll love you.
Dont tle me you lvoe me
Dont tell me sorry
Dont tlel me you care
Beocues you ont
I see it in ur eyes
YOu dont look out for me
YOu dont carea obut me
YOu lvoe not waht i am
But what you maid me
You only look out for oyu
Adn i am in the cold
THe rian poring donw on me
COisue im always holding the unbral for soemone els
And you have ripped it fomr my hands
So i slowly die aorund you
And all oyu can say is
I have done wrong
THne you care
aDns till love me
You never loved me
YOu never cares aoubt me
OYu cared aoubt you
Adn you loved waht yoi maid me
Not who i am
So stop appoligs
Stop fakeing caring
ADn stop loving the fake
Beocuse i know the truth

Sunday, September 27, 2009

I see
You tihnk i dont
But i do
I see everthing you dont wna t me to
I knwo the things you wish ididnt know
I dont try
I jsut do
I see it in ypur eyes
I see thos moments when you want to hit me
I see the moments you jstuw antt o tell me
I see the momsent you jstu want tme to hold you
And truth be todl i wish you wodl sjtu say
I wish you owuld jsut hit mw
I wiahs you owuld get angree with me
I wish you owuld hit me and be angree with me
I wish you would
Truth be told i jsut wishy ou owuld tell me
THat oyu odnt wantot ltk
THat you cont truths me
THat you dont want to
THat you cant
TRuth be told i jsut want you to jsut ahnd g on to me
Truth be told i would jsut hold you
TRuth ebe todl soem nights i widh you were there
Beocuse sotmesim its nice to know someone esl is there
Somtesim i jsut want to lay my head on you
And sjtu stay thre
somedays iwish to jstu b ehled
Some days i wihs to cry
but non shall happen
Nothing will happend
For i am me
I no longer cry
I know btter then to want
I knwo better thne to wish
So tongiht i do not wish
I do not hope for
And i knw my wants will never be true
I knwo btter thne that
And iknwo me
And i know that thi i is how it will always be

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Hay Lindsey whats up? Jordan snaswerd tthe phone noshilantly as she usly did whenit was slindsey
Jordan can yo get ove rher please Jordans vioce was frnatice she was panting osmething was up
Whats wrong? JOrnda askeds as seh grabed her keys adn andliscens
He's back and its jsut me and Oliva home. He ahd beomce the ganrica term they used for Lindseys father. THey had deammed hum unwrothey of haveing a real name
Im coming stay on the line with me. Jorndne jmped into her car and sped out of her naberhood.
What hpapend?
I dont know he jsut showed up im sure he is drunk and started paining on the door when i woudnt tlet ihm in he got nagree i sent olive to go hid i dont wnat....
Im coming donw owrry il be ther Jorans words wore smother by ablood curtiling screma that cnm formt he other line
Lindsey Linsds THe last thin g Jornd herd was Lindsey fomsrmning thne the line went dead. Jornda dropeed the phone and put the speed on as her speed toped well over 60 down the abandend back rodes Jornda edrenlin begna to rtush

Jordna pulled into the nabords drive way and walked over to Lindsys hosue the fornt door houd bene kidked in and now was swung open. Jordna oculd her screming comeing form the back room of the hosue ans she tunred the ocrner. she cought osemithng in her preful vision it was olive seh was lating on the grund.
Olive olive jordna wisperd as she chekced for a pulse
Jordna olive siad as she orled over nad grapeed the girl aroudn the neck
Lisnte to me cna you walk? Olive shookc her head yes
MY car s in you;re nabers drive way you go voe ther lock the dorrs the only reosn you will unlick theos doors is for you;re sisre or me for no other reson will you get out of that car you understn ? Oliva nodded andjornd ahanded her the keys
Jordan could still her the screaming comeing fomr the bkac room as she walked she could see drops of blood on the floor a fist makr in the was and scuff makrs alone the walls and flors. With ever step her adrenil rose. Her heart rced and the screams becmae louder. THe door was ckraked unuf for Jordna to see into the tom she sawth e bkac of a man and a lindse fase has his fist am doen on her her fasede was no longer hers as she was barly regnisalbe fomrth ebrusoing an d welling that now over wlemed her/ JHornda dinst hesit tat jordan dint think she ran throgh the cracked foor and body slammed Him agenst the wall as he slip down the wal jordn bounced of. Lindsw was crumbled up on the bed there were slash makr on her arms and blood comeing fmor ehr face.
Linds Lindsy Linds barly mubmled a hum.
Lindsy Lindsy .
I otld you i was ocmeing
Jornda oculd her the gurmbling of him beinhd her and could tlel he was beign o stand
Listen i know this is going ot b e hard but i need you to try and amke it to my car it s in ur nabors drive way
No no im not going to leave you
PLease Lindsy do this for me
Lisey please
OK, Lindasy stumbled up and walked as if she hadmore alcohol thne any one could possible consum Jordan could tell she was stumbling donw the hlal way but she herd the front fdoor open so she new that lindsy was safe for now. Jordan tunred and jsut as she spoted him her face cought the edge of his left hook
Uou are a little he mumerd the rest Jordna foudn her self on the ground and jsut as he was apout to step on her she rolled to the left as he lsot his balince
look im not looking for a fight Jordan words wore usles as he stamerd back to his feat and took another swing at her this time she retunr it with one solid punch to the kidney, it angerd him he slammed jordan agenst the walll into a mero that crush agnest ehr back
I dont like it when people dont play nice his slerd words came out jordna ducked beeneth another punch adn turned around him he swiftly doged a punch she was dielrding smsashing her ahand into the now blorken merer she felt no pain though as her hole boddy felt the edrenlin serging her. Jordan took one nicle placed kick and he tumbled to the ground jordna new this might be her only chance as she stager down the halw way to the door but she herd the heave foot steps behind ehr and trunred to meat the decvil him self who ahd picked up a bat and took one hard blow to jordna s kneee. Befor she new what was happend she was on the groun nad he had jumped ontop of her she felt a sharp stap to her stomic
You're all alike.... he said horsley with a mosk of bear and wiskey on his breath... Ill teahc toy ut he smae lest i taught her. He brought his face in close to her and seh took one good lung of her head forword. She had nocked of his balnice and squrmed her self out for under neth him as eh was rising jornd otook on last good kick and he laid on the ground motinless. Jornad amitly brought a hadn to jhis nekc one tht she now sough was bloode stained to hcek that his ouldse was thstill there. Jornda mind rusheed and thne she remberd Lindsy nad olive jornda raced out fo the house but ehr right leg jsut woudnt move the way shee need it to. As she approched her car she could see that tew girls olive pwoling adn linds holding ehr in her arms.........................

Friday, August 28, 2009

Do you see the woman
Sitting 2 rowes from the front
With the mkae up
Coverin the black eye He gave her last night
And d yo see the man of to the left side
hiss eyesy use to shine
but now they just show
THe hang over fromt he night befor

THeare are our people
There the ones who ahve the mask
plaster agenst there face
So last take thme in Lets raise thme up
And lets show the Gods grae inthis place

Do you see the girl
With the blonda hair
Mom and dad divered and she rember it all
Now she noy even shere God exits
And what abotu that teenager nect to her
Wopuld you boleve she's tihnk aoubt tkae her life

THeare are our people
There the ones who ahve the mask
plaster agenst there face
So last take thme in Lets raise thme up
And lets show the Gods grae inthis place

Theres the collige frate boy
Who jsut a weke ago
hAd his friend die in his arms
After a car reck
Adnt her a mother whos son took his own life
SHe dosnt know whare she went wrong

THeare are our people
There the ones who ahve the mask
plaster agenst there face
So last take thme in Lets raise thme up
And show thme Gods grace

what happend to us
what happend to this place
now we hold the mask firm
firm to our face
And we ownt let no one in
Ho no we wont let no one in

THeare are our people
There the ones who ahve the mask
plaster agenst there face
So last take thme in Lets raise thme up
And show thme Gods grace

HO elts ripe of the maks
FO society
stop playingt he fack smile
Adn be who were made to be

THeare are our people
There the ones who ahve the mask
plaster agenst there face
So last take thme in Lets raise thme up
And show thme Gods grace

And show thme Gods grace

Friday, August 21, 2009

MY dear child

Come her my child
Come sit in my shadow
Let the sun beat donw on our backs
LEt us smeell the freshley cut gras
And let me tell you a store
As you lay you're head gentley agnest me
For theres seomthing you dont know
Sometihng that you havent heard
Soemithng you havet seen in this dark place you;re in
A secret that has been hididng fomr you;re eyes
But my child today
Among the blosuming trease
Adn the sweat sweat lilles
With the sun beating down on us
And the smeell of freshley cut grass
Adn with you;re head gently agnest me
I will share it with you
I will tell you the secret you never knew
THe one that might not hlep you
But the one that keep s others going
THe one that tells the truth aoubt love
And gives the aswer to smoe questiona
And couse even more
My child i wissh to tell you
THat i wish to tkae all the pain in the world fomr you
I iwsh to take the pain i i cna see in you;re body
That frail body fo you;re
THe one i can see that ahs becoem weak
I care o take that pain fomr you my child
I want to wrap mya rms around you hold you close
And take it fomr you all of it
I wnat the pain you have to disaper
If you are stnading clos to death door
Let me through you to lifes door
ELt me statr death in the eyes for you
Dor my child
My dear sweayt child
As we sit hear uming the singing birds
Amoung the bue sky
With the trees blusming
Ans ther liles lising to our secret words
Withe the sun beating down on use
Adn the smell of freshily cut grass lingering umung us
I tlel you iths
My dear child
I lvoe you
I love you like icna not telll you
I wnat to take all pain fomr you
bEocues my sweat child i wish tou to be happy
I wish to see you fly with he brids
CFor you; eyes to twinkal like the big blue sky
Fro you to climb umung the blusums fo the treees
And for you to share you;re gigles with the lilies that will alwasy listne in
My child coem here
LAy you;re head in my lap
LEt me strok you;re hear softley
ELt me tell you the secrets that you sohudl hear
THat i would lvoe to take all th pain fomr you
THat i want o see you hpappe
THat i woudl give anyitnhgh for you my child
Adn this all becosue i lveo you
ear sweat child
One day yu and i
We shall not sit with the birds singing aroudn us
One day my dear shild
WE shall not sit bunethe the blue sky
Or amonng the closuming tress
We my dear shild
We will not have the sun beat down on use
Shall not share are secrets with the lilleis slsitnig in
Adn the senct fo the freshily cut grase will be forgotn fomr you;re midn
For my dear child
One day you will cly of
You will fallow the path that God has set fory ou
And my dear child liek al grate things
Oh child do not cry
One day my dear child i will hold you agne
We shall sit agne umung the sing birds chiping butful hims
Umung the blosming treas that never die
We shall have the Son smile down on us
We shall sit bunthe the blues sky that seams to never tunr gray
And we my child
Shalll share are secrest among the lillies that never semem to droup
And my child will will smels the sweat sweat smelel of newly cut grass and it wlll never be forgten domfr our mind
But today my dear child as we siter her
As you lean agenst em so gently
And I anrap you in my hold
I wish for th epain you feal to be tkae formy ou
I pray for you;re happins to come unuf for you toe rember waht it is
But to always apreatit it
And i pray that you;re hart will filll with love
Like the love i see you so frelly give away
Now my shild lay agenst em so doftly as you so
LEt the birds sing amung us
LEt the sun beat donw on us
LEt us sit amoung the tress that are blosuming
Luet us sit benth the blue sky
Let us tell our secrest with the lilleys listing in
And lsitne to my voice
Telling you the things i wish you to know
THe secreats i want you to know
And let us be
For now let us jsut be